ANTM Cycle 9

i just caught the final episode of ANTM! .. it's been soooo long since i've watched it! i remembered catching probably the 1st 2-3 episodes.. then i dunno y i missed the rest le..

they take such pretty and interesting photos! i wish i could have one like that!
maybe irma could do one for me!


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how do u achieve a life that is fulfilling to u?
how can u obtain the life that u wish for when ur not in the situation that offers such?

i've tried to be proactive about it..
but then i'm not willing to settle with the terms and conditions given..

so it ends up empty..

and it's sian to juz try and try again but not get returns..

is it like finding a job?
u've got to keep searching.. and not lose hope even after being rejected by various companies..
cuz if u keep trying.. u'll eventually land up somewhere right?

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it's hard to keep my emotions to myself when they are feeling so strongly..

at that moment, at that time..
when all thoughts revolve round and around dolor..

i couldn't care less when i've got other things to occupy my mind..
but ur like a magnet.. attracting all my messed up poles into one intoxicative direction..