depressed!

i'm sick..
mum's sick..
bro's sick..

we all have to be on long term medication..

dad too..

stupid society, environment, economy..
blame it all to those horrid external factors that adds to stress, pressure, angry, worries, anxiety and all!

i'm so dependent on daddy..
in a day he has to prepare medication for the whole family!

i noe i wouldn't like doing it..
but dad does it all without complaints..

figured the best i could do is drink up without whining..
although reluctant.. i'll still drink eventually..

but why do i have to add to his frustrations and worries with my own stupid silly trival matters which i myself can actually have control over but just refuse to?

what is it i really want?
attention???

or am i simply just giving up on myself?
losing all motivation and hope..

get back on track...
it's not the end of the world lynne..