[m]onkeys & [b]ananas

i missed like almost a month of lifesaving classes..
i finally went today and things were pretty bad..

ask me to perform any kind of rescue.. i'll definitely go wrong somewhere..
crap..

i was never ever certain of the steps since lesson 1...
but today was really horrible..
cuz i can't really like discuss or ask 1st.. den i was the last person to do.. and everyone was like looking..

so it was paiseh cuz i totally blank.. have no idea how to hold my victim or how to perform EAR...

when we walked back.. gary was said sth like..
"lynne what happen to u.. u're one of the potential ppl.. y today lidat.."

i was "erm.. i cant remember anything.. i very long nv come le.."

haiz.. sad and disappointed..

i nv tot i had potential.. other than maybe juz swimming slightly faster than the others.. but that's cuz i wanted to go fast while the others really juz take their own time..

k la.. it's an honour that gary thinks i got potential la..
but i dont...

i feel that gary nor jason dont really bother about me..
when i do an item they dun really like keep a watch on me like they do to others..
so they prob dunno im making all sorts of errors..

and gary also nv really tekan me much..
are they like not bothering much cuz they think i got potential?!?!
?????????

tt'll be so not a gd excuse la..

hmm den again.. cuz today gary was watching like my every move..
den's when he finally realised i actually dunno anything? lol..
haiz.. but i could so totally sense the disappointment in his voice la..

i was asked.. "what is shock?"
me: "stunned?"
gary: *stunned*

lol...

it's actually.. lack of blood flowing to vital organs..

k i really need to study and practice and revise and recap...
is there enough time??
need to ask jeff and xiangli for help le..

they're taking their exam this sunday!
good luck!